I’ve been answering the phone more. Mom calls and I answer. Last time, we talked for over half an hour. She caught me up on Grandma’s situation, and then told me about the art she’s been doing. She’s been trying to get back into art. I caught her up on work drama, and she told me I should man up and let my manager know I’m interested in and ready for a promotion. I told her the truth: that I’m not afraid to do this. No manning up necessary, I am already there. At least in regards to minor workplace confrontations.
But then a week goes by, and some more time, and I just keep going to and from work as though this is good.
Although it’s sort of complicated, all you need to know is that I score Somewhat Low on a personality trait called “Conscientiousness.” To be Conscientious, in personality psych, doesn’t mean to be thoughtful or kind, but rather hard-working, organized, the opposite of distracted or impulsive; granted, there is a certain element of thoughtfulness to Conscientiousness, but it’s more like external awareness: highly Conscientious folks are statistically more apt to remember your birthday, and then to call or text you making sure they have your address up to date so that they can send you a card.